December 2009
21 posts
“I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead and...”
– ~ Dr. Suess
“You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because your...”
– ~ Dr. Suess
dear old dad
today in a span of ten minutes, i found out there is a warrant out for my father’s arrest and he also needs a liver transplant (bc of his drinking im assuming).
on a brighter note, today i also found out the mysterious bumps on my torso are not herpes but instead a staph infection.
so all in all, today was a great day.
My New Years Promises (Resolutions) for 2010
go here:
http://www.facebook.com/notes/david-irwin/new-years-promises-resolutions-for-2010/219244073154
im over it
for years, i would have given my left nut to have anyone in my family (specifically my mother or father) say that they believed in me and that they thought i would succeed (at anything). every time i present a new goal or new interest and am at once told i am bound to fail. im going to leave school, come back to philly, work a shitty job that i’m over-qualified for for the next forty...
so you want to be a writer?
sdot:
vonvoss:
if it doesn’t come bursting out of you in spite of everything, don’t do it. unless it comes unasked out of your heart and your mind and your mouth and your gut, don’t do it. if you have to sit for hours staring at your computer screen or hunched over your typewriter searching for words, don’t do it. if you’re doing it for money or fame, don’t do it. if you’re...
@ thedreamfactory
sdot:
I have been tired for quite some time. I understand. Think of your therapist as a mirror. A mirror doesn’t have an opinion, but it does give you a reflection to examine.
Sometimes, being able to let whatever mind garbage you’ve been walking around with, out, is more effective than anything else. Don’t concern yourself with who collects the garbage. Just work to keep them employed....
Another Rough Mix:
“Seven Days” (Mary...
is my living in vain?
i.am.tired.
i am in a rut.
i feel cornered, and the space i am trapped in is so small i barely have the strength to cry or verbalize it.
i think my therapist is afraid of me. or apathetic. either way she is not helping me and i am slowly starting to resent her.
i am discouraged. i am disillusioned and i need change.
i need movement. even if it’s backward i just need to go somewhere.
i...
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than...”
– ~ Anaïs Nin
...is it me?
as of late ive been having the hardest time connecting with people. young, old, black, white, boy, girl, no matter what im surrounded by i end up feeling alienated. this is new for me. it’s like i don’t belong and more importantly, like i dont even care to belong. as time goes on, no matter how nice everyone is, the number of people i can tolerate pass “hi” and...
last night we sat in his bed closer than close, naked and exposed for hours. we kissed and caressed and talked. i was more than sexual. it was more intimate than i even have the words to describe. it felt good not to have to be guarded. it felt good not to be objectified or fetish-ized. it felt good to speak freely, remove the obstructions and just be myself. it felt good to be listened to and not...
shit, shit, shit on a stick!!!!
i just got off the phone with this guy ive been dating for the last five weeks or so. tonight we had our first REAL conversation where we cut the bullshit and started to lay ourselves out on the table. why, why, WHY did i tell this man about my abandonment issues and how my life is a revolving door?! i swear i need a chaperon for late night talks like this.
i was trying my hardest too keep my...
“You see everything/ You see every part/ You see all my light/ And you love my...”
– ~ “Everything” by Alanis Morissette
NEW SHIT!!
Above is a preliminary rough mix of...