i have not laid eyes on him, touched or kissed him in three weeks. mere phone calls and emails are all i have had to keep me.

i am so far beyond horny and sexually frustrated these words have gone from adjectives to parts of my identity. much of our time apart i have wished that i could drop my dick off at the doctors office for an overnight stay just to keep myself out of trouble.

and interestingly enough, i have in fact stayed out of trouble. in all this time, i have had little to no interest in partaking in hoe shit bc i realize what im missing cannot be replaced by a random sexual interaction. though this is new, we’ve been building and what we have started to create is something special. something i respect and cherish. it feels good to feel this way and it feels good to know that i am where i need to be. some place healthy.

we both return to new york tomorrow.
i can’t wait!!