tonight i saw an (i guess at this point) “old” friend of mine who i drifted away from bc, in short, he withheld truth and used me.

as i was leaving we spoke briefly. small talk nothing serious. and out of no where as i hugged him goodbye, a string of “real talk” jumped from my mouth:

“just bc whatever we had ended on bad terms doesnt mean we still can’t be friends. ive already forgiven you.”

i dont know where it came from but it was true and im glad i said it when and how i said it. i wasnt looking for a discussion, i just wanted to clear the air and put something in stone. mainly that i was not angry, sitting around poking needles into a doll modeled after him. at least now if our friendship does not mend itself, it will be due to his guilt and embarrassment as opposed to my resentment.