i am actually speechless.

im am done.

i dont have the strength to be angry. i dont have the strength to broach a discussion. im a simply tired. and im tired of being tired.

what does everything always have to fall apart? what is nothing ever stable? why am i always suffering a loss? fuck, fuck, fuck.

i haven’t cried in well over a year. i just haven’t been able to bring myself to do it. tonight might be the night that changes.